I AM SO PISSED OFF!

Grrr.............I'm so annoyed at Aren at the moment!!! I was there all weekend with him, I went over on Saturday after having a major arguement with him on Friday night I thought fuck it, he isn't gonna come meet me so I told J my concerns and he said he'd meet me so I went over on Saturday and Callum and J met me. We went to Gas works and chilled. Aren turned up with his cousin Kerry and then we all chilled, got some alcohol and I was having a good laugh. I decided J was being a lion for the day :P cause no one would punch me so I could be a panada so I decided to be a tiger instead. I was bringing out my highly immature side but J and I had a laugh. Anyways, I introduced myself to Kerry and she was actually really cool, I got on with her great. And we spotted a really nice guy who we sat there looking at, the guy kept looking round and Kerry said I was so in there but I said he was just looking cause we were staring at him. Hehe :P Anyways, Aren was really drunk with this guy he met off the internet so I was chilling with everyone else. J ended up leaving for reasons I don't want to mention but then Callum came along. Kerry, Callum and I were just chilling out, having a laugh at Aren. Then Callum lay down and I lay on my back with my head on Callum's stomach just chilling and talking. Then Aren came along and kicked Callum and said something along the lines off "Stop trying to steal my girl" I looked at him and he quickly changed it to friend. I was a bit iffy but ok fair's fair. Anyways, in the end everyone persuaded Aren to come sleep at mine, so he did do. He decided it was his style to hold hands all of a sudden so I was like 'ok suppose so'. On the bus to mine he says "I Love You" and I just looked out of the window and pretended I didn't hear, about 20 seconds later he said "nah only joking" and I'm like what the fuck is that for a joke! Maybe I'm just too pissed off, maybe the whole jealously thing just seems to be emphasised by me being overly pissed of with Aren. Anyways, we had a good time and then Sunday was ok too but this evening was fooked. He said he was jealous and that he was getting attached. I was treating all this as a piece of fun, how can mr hard man get attached, because he said "i'm only human". Then today yea Hassan took my phone and was reading my text messages and some of them were dirty from months ago from Shaun and various people and Hassan was reading them out and I was getting pretty annoyed, Aren however was laughing his ass off. But tonight on msn he was really off with me and I asked why and he said everything about those text messages pissed him off. I was like erm but they were from months back and he said it didn't make a difference. He also thinks I'm sending dirty text messages to his friend Callum who's 15. I was shouting saying for fucks sake, he's 15, and I don't think he's attractive and I certainly don't fancy him but no Aren has to get it stuck into his head that we're sending messages about sex to each other and he won't trust me. I told him he's always going on at me to trust him and I said it wasn't fair that I had to trust him but he wouldn't trust me. To this he came out with something like "well was it fair on me to hear those texts?" and I was like grrrr I didn't tell you to read them, who wouldn't take my phone back for me cause it was personal y'know and I'm not going out with the guy. I've done fuck all wrong. Anyway, its ended on a bad note and now his msn name includes "why do u hate me?" if that's directed at me, I may go incredibly crazy.

Hopefully Kate's coming round for dinner tomorrow night, I need someone to bitch too. Kings of Leon on Wednesday, gig on Sunday and J (the lions) party the Saturday after. And and and :D:D:D I'm going to Thom's in July!! Can't wait to see him. It'd be good. Wow, that's only next month, after Nine Inch Nails :D:D Woo Trent.......is lovely hehe.

Sara aka Sachi
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