Confusion..........Yet Again

Well yesterday (Friday) was Rich's 32nd birthday. I had been asking people for about 3 weeks beforehand to cover me but oh no, my manager decided to bring loads of people in, in the day so there was no one to actually cover me. I asked her should I really still come in. The answer unfortunately was yes. I got there yesterday, and there was absolutely nothing to do at all. I ended up going on the customer service desks and doing all the announcements because I that bored and none of the managers would let me go early. So frustrating.

Anyway, I finished work and went up to Gen's. Everyone had already left the BBQ which was frustrating. I walked in and Simon was on the couch. I heard he had shagged that other girl last night so basically I don't exactly have great feelings towards him. I asked "whats wrong with him?", Gen said "headache". Si looked up at me and I just looked at him and said "gutted" in my true bitchiness style. That girl Jenna (the one he shagged Thur night) was at the party but because she's only 17 "shit was kicking off" with her mates, haha that's a quote too (I remember when I was like that) so she left. I'm starting to dislike her so much and I've never met her. I don't particularly want to meet her. Why? What exactly would it achieve?

Anyway, Karl was being nice and cooked some stuff on the BBQ for me cause I hadn't ate that day. Simon spent the whole night on the couch asleep. We tried waking him to go to Karl's room but he wouldn't move. So Karl and I sat next to one another on one tiny end of the couch. We were just sitting then ended up cuddling. Gen and Rich went off for sex so Karl and I moved onto the recliner. Just cuddling and kissing; it was nice. I ended up falling asleep on him; woke up when he left for bed and fell back asleep again. Woke up about 6 in the morning and decided I was uncomfortable on the recliner so went to top/tail with Simon on the couch cause for some reason. I really don't like him. He, however, dragged me over and started cuddling me. Woke up at 7 and got Simon up. Everyone went to work then. I went upstairs with half a ciggie for Karl and ended up just laying there next to him, both quite bare shall we shall. It wasn't even dodgy. It was me and him just cuddling and kissing and it was so nice.

Anyway, about 8:15ish we heard noises downstairs and it sounded like somebody was there. Karl got up and dressed and went to investigate. It was a guy called Ste that Rich and Si work with. He was shouting "I want to see Si!", we were like "he's at work". He then excused us of lying. He just walked into the house and Karl tried stopping him. I went to talk to Karl who was in the kitchen and walked through to the living room and dickhead Ste was about to grab my £30 off the table. I snatched it off him and said, "I think not". This Ste guy, he came over once when Simon and I didn't really know each other and weren't sleeping together, it was mainly talking. Ste came in and over to Simon and I and started making suggestive comments and he just creeped me out and made me feel really uncomfortable so he got banned from the house by Rich after that. I sent a text to Gen about Ste being here and next thing I knew I got a phone call from Rich's phone. I answered it and it was Simon. He was apparently ready to come and open a can of whoop ass on Ste because somehow Rich got it into his head that Ste was coming onto me and touching me and Si was going mental. I told him the story and he wasn't happy. Then I thought fair do's he knows the story I can get off the phone (bear in mind I was lying naked next to Karl) but then he started a conversation and I was like 'er...ok' and then he said "you going to ring me back so Rich's credit doesn't go". I really didn't see the point in it; I had seen him what 2 hours previous, what exactly would I have to say to him. So I said no and said bye to him. Karl and I ended up sleeping together, I got a shower and went work.

Work today was a pain. I went in really happy (for obvious reasons) and wide awake despite having no sleep. It was all going great until Danny came along. He's the boyfriend of one of the girls from George. He came storming over and said "what have you been saying about my dad!?" I found out the day before that his dad has passed away about two weeks before. I just stood there and said "nothing". I was really confused and then Danny said "Jake told me". I started getting really wound up. People were making things up which I had never said and especially about his father. I ended up bursting into tears like an idiot. I got upset because why on earth would I take the piss out of somebodies recently deceased father when I don't have one of my own. He came to find me when I was crying upstairs in the staff toilets and he said "I wasn't kicking off". I explained to him how I'd never take the piss when I don't even have a dad myself. Well I do, he just wants absolutely nothing to do with me. We made up but then my work friends Matt and Heather told me he came out from talking to me saying "fuck sake". Yea....sure you meant that apology. In work Karl and I didn't speak once. But as he'd pass he'd give me a warm smile with a bit of cheek in it cause we knew exactly what we did last night.

So, some more questions? Why am I suddenly being so horrible to Simon? Have I finally realised I may be the main girl but while he's got his teenage bit on the side I just can't take it? Why, when I've spent the evening cuddling up with Karl does he suddenly turn into super guy. Being all worried about me, doing stuff for me, making sure I'm ok. Surely that can't be jealousy? Can it? How do I feel about Karl - I'm confused. Famous last words. My famous last words.

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