Not Happy..........

My friend Hayley who works on customer services broke up with her boyfriend on Sunday I think it was. Karl took her out Wednesday to cheer her up and they went back to Karl's and got wrecked with Si. When Si went to bed they kissed. I'm not happy though. At the end of the day, Si and I asked permission to start seeing each other and we didn't hide it. It's too awkward, we all work together and I don't know why I'm just not happy with it and when she asked I told her I wasn't and she said "Let's see what happens" which means she's going to go and do it anyway and I don't know just grrrrrrr. Gen said I've got Simon so I shouldn't bother, but Karl and I slept together on our own. We hugged, we kissed, we held hands, it was nice, the problem was it had feeling. I have feelings..........and I still kinda like him even when he's grown his hair into some unknown afro type of thing.

I don't know what to do.

I've got to let him go at some point - but this is too close to home

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